This was supposed to be titled, “Yes, I can!” I had planned everything in the morning of all the things I was going to say today. But right now, I really doubt if I can say, “Yes, I can.”
I am crying. Right now. Yes, I am crying write now. I have been crying for over an hour.
I don’t know why. I really have no reason.
Did something happen? No.
Did someone say something to me? No.
But I can’t cry for nothing.
I have been holding my tears since afternoon. My mind stopped working at about 6 in the evening.
I am tired.
No, not tired.
I am exhausted.
But I will try. Yes, I will try. I will try to stay calm. I will try to make peace with my mind. I will try, I will try to…
Just 16 more hours to go. I have my last exam tomorrow.
I’ll be free. I’ve waited for this moment to arrive for the last 21 months, that’s almost since the beginning of my postgraduation course.
I am happy that it is all going to end tomorrow, but then why all this release of emotions?
Maybe it is that moment of catharsis about which I studied during my graduation. I don’t know.
It’s been half an hour since I’m working on this and to be surprise, I have stopped crying. I’ll go to sleep. I’ll go to sleep with the hope that when I wake up tomorrow, I would be able to say “Yes, I can!”
Read all parts of A to Z challenge 2019 here.