Dear 15-year-old Me
You performed so well in your exams! I am proud of you. I know the result did not make any difference. The board took away the excitement of the declaration of the result by postponing it again and again.
I know you are relieved that you have lived up to the expectations of everybody. Nobody can understand you and your thoughts better than me. I have lived it too.
What next? I know you are planning to take up the conventional path pre-decided for a scholar student. Not only because you are bound to do it but also because the character of a stupid movie inspired you. Oh yes! You you can’t deny that it was stupid.
Know that there would be people who would tease you for your nerdy nature. Know that you will be the burning candle of someone’s life. Know that you will fall in love with a hollow dream. Know that you are going to take some decisions just because they feel right in the moment.
Know that just like you keep getting injured without even doing anything, you are going to fall down in a similar way. It’s just that this time, it’s going to be really hard. Know that there would be people spreading rumours.
But don’t think that you’ve lost the fight. Because that would just be the beginning of the war.
You will fall victim to the blame game. The fight will neither be with those who will tease you nor with those who will spread rumours. It will not be with those who have expectations from you. It will not be with those who you think you love.
The battle will be with yourself. You will know what I mean when the time is right.
Remember that our journey is not only about the war, it’s also about rehabilitation and reconstruction. Remember that there will come a time when you would stop burning yourself for others and be the sunshine of your own life.
Your 24-year-old self
In response to 10-day Letter Writing Challenge